I have really been wanting to talk about everything happening. Ranging from COVID to Trump, to elections, to not having the ability to do things out of the house, all the way to my having to cancel electrolysis in December. The hard part though is there is a lot of stress and it sort of opens up more stress and trauma I never have wanted to deal with. This means I have been fighting with my depression and tendency to self-sabotage.
Lately, I have opened up with my therapist about some stuff that only Wolsey knows about (not even my siblings or older friends). I do plan on talking about that (writing it out is how I work with it) but it’s still way too fresh. I do however need to make room for dealing with the new trauma, so that means I will probably start writing about the old trauma. I only have so much room and that is how I get it away from me.
I am only posting this now so you can unfollow if you don’t want to read that kind of stuff, also because with peremptory posts like this it helps smooth things out for myself to write about. It takes forever for me to say what I need to say, and these little posts help me inch into a place I can talk. I think I can finally start processing my childhood… but that will take time and this is how I start.
Also, I wanted to say that the one direction that I am proud of in my life is my marriage to my husband. He celebrated his 49th birthday a couple of weeks ago and I am just so proud to have been married to him for more than 28 years now. So I wanted to wrap this up by saying I love you to my best friend, lover, spouse, and soul mate.
I LOVE THIS MAN MORE THAN ANYTHING… I LOVE YOU MY HEART!!!