I realize saying that I am terrified will be considered hyperbole by some, but it isn't. I have had to stop reading any news sites because of the anxiety I am getting just by watching things unfold. Don't get me wrong, still fully supportive of BLM, Trans Rights, etc. I however can't watch new news … Continue reading I am terrified
Category: Health
Medical Update
The last few weeks have been busy. Packed with trips down to Phoenix for my face, work fires and some health things that came up. I realize most people think this is too personal, but if I don't blog about something, I tend to not write about it or remember it fully. So here is … Continue reading Medical Update
Anxiety and Insomnia
I have always suffered from insomnia. Not the "I can't go to sleep" variety, but the kind that after a few hours I wake up and I can't go back to sleep no matter what. I have had this since at least the age of 10 that I remember, and I know my parents always … Continue reading Anxiety and Insomnia
Uncomfortable Insomnia with a bit of Panic Attack
I realize this is bad form. I am posting out of order. I just had my surgeries three days ago and I am thrilled with the results. I look really good, I am incredibly happy, etc. However., that post will come later, now I am talking about how uncomfortable I woke up feeling this evening. … Continue reading Uncomfortable Insomnia with a bit of Panic Attack
In the Middle – the Penis
This is a TMI warning to everyone. The following post is about my masculine junk that sits between my legs. No one talks about it, and I found some transitional things out the hard way, so I figure I would post about it to those who are curious about what really happens. This is my … Continue reading In the Middle – the Penis
In the Middle – Surgical Things.
I know it has been a little while since I last wrote. I swore I would have time to write more, but things have been a little anxious and nerve-wracking and I haven't had the energy to sit down and write. The good news is that I have gotten to help copy edit the husband's … Continue reading In the Middle – Surgical Things.
The lifting grey clouds.
It probably goes without saying that my childhood, along with my being transgender all add up to some serious mental health obstacles. This ranges from dysphoria, CPTSD, Oppositional Defiance Disorder, crippling lack of self-worth, suicidal ideation (2 attempts as a teen), the inability to keep jobs (before I graduated at the age of 36 from … Continue reading The lifting grey clouds.
Contrary to what I have written lately, I am happy
I realize a lot of my posts have been negative lately. The grief of the anniversary of my father's death, the stresses of family, the transphobia on a regular basis. This might make it seem like everything is just doom and gloom. Nothing could be further from the truth. I am happier now then I … Continue reading Contrary to what I have written lately, I am happy
Breast Augmentation Consult
I have been at four consults with different surgeons trying to get a feeling for who I wanted to go with. Last night I saw Dr. Antonio Mangubat and I decided he is the guy. Funny enough, he is the guy who did the FTM top surgery for my husband back in 2016. The surprise … Continue reading Breast Augmentation Consult
Finishing Off 2019
This last month was supposed to be mostly vacation and medical appointments. With Christmas coming and this being the first Christmas where I am not so depressed that I was numb, I knew it might be a little rough emotionally. It was a lot worse than expected. On Christmas Eve I got a call from … Continue reading Finishing Off 2019