This last month was supposed to be mostly vacation and medical appointments. With Christmas coming and this being the first Christmas where I am not so depressed that I was numb, I knew it might be a little rough emotionally. It was a lot worse than expected. On Christmas Eve I got a call from … Continue reading Finishing Off 2019
Category: Health
Current News
I realize I have been extremely radio silent lately, and that mostly has to do with me working on my mental health, the holidays, and the numerous small trips I am having to make for transition. All of this has left me emotionally and mentally exhausted. I realized this and I figured I might give … Continue reading Current News
Tired…
This was originally a Facebook post I posted earlier this morning, so if it isn't cogent... I blame Facebook. People make me tired. This is a long rant so please scroll on by if you are inclined. I was in a line at Safeway yesterday standing behind this older looking guy (but probably not really … Continue reading Tired…
Rough day (transphobia)
Yesterday was harder than normal, and represents the third day in about a week of hostile encounters. I realize this is the new normal, but I figured I would share them. The day started with me going to Safeway to pick up some paper bowls. I was wandering the paper bowl/plate aisle when two older … Continue reading Rough day (transphobia)
Things I forgot
You would think that I would remember my childhood all the time, the violence (not on us by parents, but surrounding us), the alcoholism, the homelessness, but evidently I forget huge chunks for years at a time and am surprised when my PTSD pops things back up. We went to the movies to see Rambo … Continue reading Things I forgot
Some good news
I got my blood test results back. I have some good news and some ok news. Good news: my testosterone is "LESS THAN 10 ng/dL" and the range is 0-74ng/dL. So at least we know my testicles haven't mysteriously grown back 🤣. The test is to ensure the male hormone has dropped off thus allowing feminine … Continue reading Some good news
Anxiety
One of the things I had done during my FFS was cheek implants. I originally didn't think I wanted them, but the doc talked me into and to be honest she was correct. I think they look great, and I am really happy. The left cheek implant has always bothered me during the healing contest. … Continue reading Anxiety
Upgrade of HRT regimen
Things are looking up. After a pretty horrible experience with my previous provider, who told me the hormones won't do me much good anymore... I talked with my therapist and husband (two different people) and we went to a different doctor, a trans specialist. He saw me, totally reassured me that I am far from … Continue reading Upgrade of HRT regimen
Frustrations at work
Yesterday was quite the frustrating thing. I was dressed up in my blue striped dress, my hair was made up and I had good makeup on. I went out to a non-profit agency with a second monitor who looks at different things. I was there to audit them and I had steeled myself to get … Continue reading Frustrations at work
Insomnia, Anxiety and Sleeplessness
I can't tell you why I was awake at 12:30am specifically. I am anxious, tired, pacing the living room trying not to wake my hubby. Of course today I have to audit an agency so it isn't like I can just veg out in my office at work. I don't think its the audit itself … Continue reading Insomnia, Anxiety and Sleeplessness
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