Too Quiet

I have always known that I was not somebody who liked silence. Growing up, I would wake up in the middle of the night and wait for something bad to happen. The funny thing is I never had anything happen in silence, so to be honest, I don't know where it specifically came from. I … Continue reading Too Quiet

Two Incidents

The last couple of weeks I have actually been leaving the house more, mostly to pick up things we need or for work. That being said, it is taking me a bit to get used to people looking at me publicly. I didn't realize how much more armor had softened during that time, but already … Continue reading Two Incidents

Social Media DMs and The Weirdness of It

I have been posting to social media as a transwoman now for 4 years. The last two are when I have hit my stride, and while I don't pass, I can look pretty good sometimes, and I think it is just slowly getting better. In the last two years I have gotten a lot of … Continue reading Social Media DMs and The Weirdness of It

A dark office building (dreams)

I woke up early today with only three hours sleep, so eventually after 4am I crawl back in bed and fall asleep for about 40 minutes. That is when I started dreaming. I was in a weird old office building, but it was homier than that. There were rooms with little couches, tv areas, etc. … Continue reading A dark office building (dreams)

Dark Bedroom (dream)

I realize it has been a while since I posted, so much for my daily post haha. Now that I have settled and my personal demons to a dull roar I can go back to posting, mostly today about the dream I just woke up from. I am just starting antibiotics yesterday, makes me wonder … Continue reading Dark Bedroom (dream)

2021 Holiday Time

Happy Holidays everyone, my Christmas was great. I got to spend it with my husband, best friend, and lover (lol yep they are the same). My hubby has made my life bearable and I can never express to him how much I treasure that. He is my life. Here he is saying hi. I keep … Continue reading 2021 Holiday Time

I promise I am alive

I swear I meant to keep up, but life gets busy and my medical stuff has been on such a high level of visits that I haven’t had time. However, I think I want to catch up a little before I start moving forward with new subject posts. I just looked at the website and … Continue reading I promise I am alive

Harassed twice in 15 hours…

It has been a long time since I was out and about in public as often as this last week. I forgot about the dozen microaggressions in each store, and the contrasting supporting smiles I get. This has been the most I have been in public with the new boobs, and the new fat transfer, … Continue reading Harassed twice in 15 hours…


It is funny how you can go through the first 50 years of your life and not realize how fucked up things are. Mostly today I am referring to expectations, and especially with expectations, I have placed on myself. The last couple of weeks or so I realized that most of my life is based … Continue reading Expectations

Dreams: Old Warehouse

The dream is mostly fading away, but it involved me wandering through an old abandoned warehouse or large supermarket (I am sure this is directly linked to watching one of my LPs with hubby in Last of Us 2 when exploring the abandoned supermarket). I don't think I was any younger during this dream, I … Continue reading Dreams: Old Warehouse