PT: A Homeless Smile

Project Throwback: April 16, 1986 Derek was a pretty happy kid, I think we all were. Here is my little brother at this tiny amusement park outside Lake Tahoe Nevada when we were homeless back in 1985-1987. Considering we spent most of the time cold, tired and hungry living in a car. This combined with … Continue reading PT: A Homeless Smile

Dreams: Grumpy old Auditor

Last night I woke up to a bizarre dream that had been happening on and off. I am not fully awake so I apologize if this is choppy, but it's better to get my dream out than wait to wake up all the way. It started by me being with a large group of auditors, … Continue reading Dreams: Grumpy old Auditor

Dreams: Old Warehouse

The dream is mostly fading away, but it involved me wandering through an old abandoned warehouse or large supermarket (I am sure this is directly linked to watching one of my LPs with hubby in Last of Us 2 when exploring the abandoned supermarket). I don't think I was any younger during this dream, I … Continue reading Dreams: Old Warehouse

Horrific baby killing dreams.

I am not sure why, but last night my sleep sucked I ended up waking up at 4am. I had a brief dream that consisted of me being in a group of people. My little brother came running up to me (he was 2 or 3 at the time, wearing his light blue footie pajamas). … Continue reading Horrific baby killing dreams.

Dreams 7-29-18

Last night I had a dream that really kind of bothered me. It was in an old house my parents had rented when I was a kid, on Iron Street. There were some differences, mainly my parents were the same age they are now (as was I), there were flourescent lights behind plexiglass advertisements on … Continue reading Dreams 7-29-18

Dreams 6-15-2006

Last night was the night of weird dreams. I only really remember one. A very large group of us went to an old abandoned movie theater, they were doing a one shot "slasher" flick. Pretty much everyone I know was there, including my little brother, but no Wife.  We sat down in this musty, mildewy … Continue reading Dreams 6-15-2006


Well this wasn't the update I wanted to post, but its funny how things happen so close together. First let me say I know my family loves me, I love them, but they are by far one of the most dysfunctional groups I have ever known. Lets give you a brief recap of my family … Continue reading Frustrations

Anxiety, Insomnia and a Weird day.

Well here it is, 4am and I have just woke up with an anxiety attack/weird dreams. Even though its about other things I am sure the anxiety attack/waking up/insomnia is because its awfully warm, because my caffiene addiction hasn't been satiated and because I am worried about my grades. I had a weird day yesterday. … Continue reading Anxiety, Insomnia and a Weird day.


Well, here it is early monday morning. My little brother stayed over last night and slept on the couch (ok little is a misnomer, he is 9 years younger then me - but that still makes him 22- and he is only slightly shorter then me and his shoulders are half again wider, lol the … Continue reading Update