COVID19 Disappointment – Cancelled Surgery

It has been a full week since my last post. You think being home for seven days I would write more… you would evidently be wrong.

I mentioned in the last post that my surgery was still a go. Even at that time with COVID19 not hitting full-blown yet I was pretty sure it would be canceled, and it turns out I was right. Friday, an hour before we were going to leave for my preop appointment I got the call.

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I talked with them on the phone and they said I could come in for the preop and not have to do it when surgery began again. As it stands non-emergent surgeries might start back up May 18th. I told them I would come in anyway, just to get it out of the way.

Turns out they will still need to do another preop since it is too far away to give me the narcs I will need for post-surgery recovery. That is ok though, I got to sit with Dr. Mangubat and his wonderful nurse (for the life of me I can’t remember her name).

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They reassured me that it would eventually happen. The hubby asked about combining it with my other upcoming surgeries and we also found out that if I get my lower face FFS/touch up around the eyes that I could lump it in with the upcoming breast augmentation and it would save me more than $3,000 because I would already be on the table and under anesthesia.

The hubby asked if I would be interested in doing it all at once instead of waiting a few months after the breast augmentation. I jumped at the chance. The augmentation is covered by insurance, so we would have to come up with $14k and some change for the second part of my FFS. We are fortunate to have enough credit that we paid down from the first part of my FFS that we can swing it.

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Yes its funny, and yes I may have considered that an option if I was younger and cuter. Anything to not have an office job.

So we told the doc when he opens up surgeries again that I wanted the entire thing, breast augmentation, and lower FFS. I am excited about that possibility. It means my surgeries for my face and chest would be over after that. I still have possible surgeries to deal with my Peyronie’s disease, a future tummy tuck, and possible Gender Confirmation Surgery if the surgeries for Peyronie’s don’t work out. But everything chest level and up will be done except many more electrolysis sessions (which btw will probably start in November again).

I was also able to double-check the sizing of 800cc implants on my frame and they don’t look too big. We thought for a while they might be too much, but my chest is very broad, and at 6’2″ they will be larger breasts, but not stripper size.

 

Since learning this last Friday it has caused me a bit of anxiety and dysphoric depression this week, with the realization that it got pushed off. I suspect it is going to be longer than May 18th as well. I don’t think things are going to go back to normal that quickly. Either way, I don’t begrudge the safety measures so there is space for people who are actually sick with COVID and other life-threatening procedures, but it doesn’t change how it feels inside.

So there it is, surgery is pushed off, BUT when I do get it, it will be a lot bigger and more impacting. So good stuff coming, just have to wait for it.

 

 

COVID19 – Social Distancing Day Four

I figured I had a break so I could maybe put some thoughts on paper. Mainly dealing with the whole pandemic issue going on. Oh and yes I am trying to maintain humor so you get memes as well.

First let me be clear that this is a huge medical emergency, and it isn’t just some common cold. I keep hearing the whole “it’s only the vulnerable and the old in danger” and it really pisses me off. Fuck you TRUMPers, yes it was almost uniformly a trumper that said that to me. People matter, the old, the sick, the poor, so fuck yourself.

Personally I think COVID has been rolling through USA longer then they believe. The hubby and I got super super super sick, had huge fevers and couldn’t breathe at the end of 2019/beginning of 2020 and it lasted weeks. It was bad enough I went to urgent care and they handwaved me away. I think it might be possible we already had it, and we are fairly safe.

That being said, I may be wrong, or I may be carrying it even if I am over the worst effects and I will make sure we abide by the social distancing thing. I would never want to be responsible for endangering others.

The only anxiety I have about the pandemic is my chest surgery on April 3rd. So far it is still a go, in fact, tomorrow we go to our pre-op appointment for it. Our surgeon is a plastic surgeon who doesn’t do general medicine, doesn’t see sick patients and has his own operating clinic, he doesn’t have to do this at a hospital or public medical arena. No orders have been given for him to give it up yet, so we might be ahead of the curve (hopefully the curve is flattened enough it wouldn’t matter anyway).

We did decide not to fly down to Phoenix for electrolysis. We didn’t want to deal with the possibility of getting the virus in that travel but before my surgery. Surgery comes first, then electrolysis. In fact this has changed things in our order of importance and if the pandemic isn’t too critical I might try and get my lower face done in May instead of waiting. We will then proceed with electrolysis in November again. Besides face work will remove face skin and that means less electrolysis needed anyways.

I was not really shocked, more like saddened when I saw my fellow citizens freaking out and starting to hoard things that didn’t need to be hoarded. Toilet paper, water, and all the disinfectants/sanitizers. Seriously just wash your damn hands. So there we are now, a society of losers that freak out and run around like chickens with our heads cut off, when not more than a week before we were mocking people dying in other countries (I have a huge rant about this coming up at some point).

The food situation is good, we are cooking at home and I am baking like a madwoman. We are fortunate that both of us can telework right now, but we are prepared for that to go away if it gets worse. We are then fortunate enough to have enough credit built up to last awhile. I definitely think we need to help others with unemployment/COVID pay, but I see Trump is going to bankrupt us with gifts to businesses more than to the people themselves. I guess I shouldn’t expect more.

I think we will be in a routine soon enough. I am running solo games for hubby and I am going to try and get my group games on discord more (sorry Torie that it got put off). Honestly social distancing, as long as I can work from home, works for me indefinitely.

The one thing I really do feel guilty for though is the semi-relief I feel that my parents died already. They both had huge medical issues (my dad had huge lung issues) and with this running around I would have been a basket case being worried. Especially since I had family and friends of family that wouldn’t stop going over there, even when they were sick. It was bad enough when they were alive I got in fights with them over it. While I feel guilty, there is a sense of relief that I don’t have that worry (although I would give almost anything to have more time with them).

Moral of the story, just stay the fuck home and make sure you don’t hoard things an elderly or poor person can’t afford to get immediately. Make sure we take care of each other. Also thank you to everyone, first responders, medical, stockers, cashiers, etc that are keeping things going.

Well that is it for today’s “COVID POST”. I am going to write more, I am feeling a little better mentally and life is smoothing out. Or maybe this is like half my posts saying I am going to write more and don’t. Only tomorrow will tell 😉