Wearing the horns

I figured I would write this down quickly and try and go back to bed (even though I have to get up god awful early). I promised myself I would write the dreams down, even if they sucked or didn’t make sense. I should note that this is a dream, so I do not hold it against anyone 🙂

I dreamed that hubby and I were running Dying Light. At least I assume it was Dying Light. The camp was different though, there seemed to be a stream that ran through it, and multiple cabins (it wasn’t a camp I have seen before). I remember looking around and noting that a lot of people had really cool decorations, including theater lighting type stuff. There were buildings with detailed decorations hanging in windows, I could hear voices in the distance enjoying themselves.

We were sitting in the plot/logistics cabin, checking the occasional person in (and our age group was much wider than it is now). During this time a lot of sex things were happening sort of off camera. Not involving me or hubby , I just felt others were “being busy” in other rooms. I got uncomfortably propositioned by one of the guys and really wasn’t interested. Don’t get me wrong, I have seen some guys I consider attractive, and I have scored low on purity tests dealing with guys, but I am definitely geared for women :). 

hubby then placed a large set of horns on my head and gave me a large kiss. Something felt a little off about that, but I wasn’t sure. It didn’t feel like she was dressing me like a beastman.

I was sitting on the couch helping Mr. G (name changed to try and not embarrass anyone who may have been named in real life) when hubby sat between me and him on the couch, she then leaned over on my lap and grabbed my horns with a smile, she smelled a bit like wine and she nuzzled me and said she was a bit drunk. I chuckled to her that we should go sleep together (she had that semi-horny, buzzed girl voice/movement going). Now, I am not sure but I think in my dream talk I might have said something like Toothy and I (her character) just because of her response. She shook her head, “no…. Sage wants to go sleep with Mr. G …”. I was a bit shocked by that, and stammered a bit. I felt really ashamed (I think this may have been worse due to the fact that Mr. G was sitting right on the other side of her) and she chuckled at me just tugging at my horns. She then leaned over towards the other person about to kiss him. That’s when I awoke to a loud beating heart.

I felt like I was kicked in the gut. I wasn’t mad at Mr. G, I was embarrassed that she had turned me down and then said she wanted to sleep with someone else within earshot of that other person and the rest of plot camp. I also felt weird that she used a name she no longer uses. 

In reality I am not angry at my beautiful wife, she has done nothing wrong, but it bothered me to be cuckolded in my dream (and no I don’t know why at the time I thought of the term cuckolded). I then got up to write this down. Oh, and a side note about wearing horns, the term “wearing the horns” means to be cuckolded or to have an adulterous wife (you can also say that nowadays about men). I must have picked up that little bit of subconscious knowledge in the past, unfortunately to have it pushed at me during an anxiety dream.

No my wife is not adulterous, and funny enough we have an open marriage and in real life I don’t get jealous, it was just an anxiety dream (this is one of the areas I get anxiety in). Just not sure why I am so anxious. I better get some sleep, I am going to crawl back in with my beautiful wife who loves me. Pardon my writeup, I know I sound stilted and a bit like mojo-jojo.

Dying Light Episode 2

Gallery: Dying Light Season 0 (test season)
Date: August – October 2009
Location: Fort Ebey State Park, Washington

Just got back from Dying Light. It was even better then the first game. Unfortunately some of our players were not able to make it, however we had several new players (and we are keeping at least three, a fourth that will play when they aren’t in UT and have time and the fifth, well you never know maybe he will become a gamer) and even though it was a couple of players less the game was incredibly fun (a lot more fun then the first, and I loved the first).

There was undead, pirate merchants, Cyborg commanders, Beastmen shamans, Vampire merchants, Marketday, swarms of more undead, a skull that was a magical key, more undead, a Death Shrine starting to open, defense building by the town, sacrifice of people to the portal, more undead, a beautifully executed ritual that slowed the portal and finally more death.

Oh, and lets not forget a bitter Banshee that keeps coming back.

There are of course more interactions, and I am sure these I just listed don’t make sense. I just thought I would give a incredibly quick briefing of the event before I got some tea and food. Be prepared for a more detailed update. All I have left to say is I love the game, I think we are building an incredibly strong core and by the time we are done with the BETA season (October 16-18) I think we will be well on our way to an established game, that may be smaller for awhile, but beats out the competition 😉

More Weird Dreams

Well I was awoken at 430am by some bizarre dreams. In the dreams I was on the bus with Sage much like when we go to school. Some asshole college students gave her a hard time. I got up, walked over and punched one of them until they couldn’t move. I then proceeded to get off the bus with my wife. I know that some other point I had to do the same thing to another person (I broke one of thier fingers for  pointing at her).

Bizarre, huh?

Yesterday went real well. Our GURPS game is getting smaller and smaller (we lost possibly two players this week, depends on what was going on and why they no showed). Maybe I need to find players who like GURPS and who can make Sundays and are interested in a Space based exploration/piracy/etc game (hint hint, nudge nudge).

The universe is just coming together now (its similar to Traveller, we are using several Traveller supplements, but its not quite exact). I am having a blast running the game and things are starting to pick up in stride. Thier first combat since the game began 4 weeks ago happened Sunday. It was a minor combat (I am intentionally keeping combat to a minimum until we get a handle on the new system).

I was flattered yesterday, like most Sundays before game starts we go to the Denny’s bar (its Sunday so every restaurant is packed, except bars). The older waitress who is always there and is damn cool was talking to us. I complained about “college” kids and she laughed at me. She said something along the lines of “your not very old, what your 25 or so right?” she was surprised when I told her me and the wife were both 32. I really do think part of what makes a person look older is moving into a “adult lifestyle”. Some people have kids so no matter what at least part of your life because adult because the children must come first, but I have met some parents that are good parents but still seem like they are 10-15 years younger then they are. I really think youth is a mental thing.

Sean (who was with us this Sunday) birthday was last week. He turned a ripe old age of 22. I was chatting with him and he said he didn’t want to get any older and that 22 was a good age. Funny as I think about it I dont think I would want to be under 25 now (and honestly I am damn happy at 32, my only worry is slowly we lose friends who are our age because they decide to “grow up”).

On another note, we have a truck now, and a word popped up that hasn’t popped up for quite a while. That word was “Legacies”. The word came up because several of the people I feel obligated to hospitalize no longer attend. Also maybe I am just growing up, or maybe enough time has passed that my anger has cooled down a lot.

Nothing definate about that, we just talked about the possibility (which in itself is more then we have for months and months).

On another note, I have begun rebuilding Dying Light. Not sure if we are going to get a different URL or what but with me learning ASP.NEt this is exactly what I needed to learn to have a fully functioning self updating website that requires very little logistics use.

Well I better get going on my ASP.NET homework. I put that off all weekend but I should at least attempt it today. There is so much more I want to post but I will have to wait I guess.

First day of class

Well, I have survived the first two classes today (I have/had a three hour dead time between second and third class). My first class is the next level of pre-calculus, moderately difficult although this time I decided to sit in the back (I haven’t sat in the back of any class in school since I was a senior in high school in ’89)

Damn I read that now and I realize I am older then most of these munchkins. My precalc class is taught by Katie Stables, she is really nice, but really strict and fast in her class presentations. SO far this is the only class I think will be hard.

Right after pre-calc I have my ever easy Anthropology 102 class (I needed filler so I could attain full time status, I dont have the pre-calc class under my belt I need to progress in my major, thats the precalc class I am taking now). The teacher seems easy going the class is large and it seems like it will be fun. ITs a very basic pre-history anthro class. We only have 3 tests in the entire class (each worth 100 pts, multiple choice with 50 questions) and a 6-8 page paper (which I could do in my sleep in a week of not so tense studying).

He said we could be creative with our paper and if we wanted to do a more hands on type of approach he would accept equivelant sized projects. We need 5 sources (hell the History 387 class I had last year required 12 sources and was 30 pages of content, plus intro page and bibliography) we can pick any anthro/archeological topic that deals with humans or human prehistory. We have to have one valid “anthropological source journal” after class I asked him if I could use “Scientific America” as my source journal (plus a few other lesser sources) he looked surprised at me, I have flaming blue hair right now and last night we bought the most badass buckle/laceup boots (pretty cool looking) and I was wearing my light “Revolutionary War era type jacket”. I think he was dumbfounded I even knew what “Scientific America” Magazine was (let alone we have an ongoing subscription to it, me and the wife.

Meanwhile the entire time an underclassmen girl (pretty cute) kept asking me questions and wanting to know if I ever partied. Even though she was cute she is definately not my type. I dont believe in going out with younger girls unless they are within a few months of me, otherwise they just dont do it for me on a relating level. Back to the point, the professor also said if I had as much content as a 6-8 page DOUBLE spaced (so about 3-4 real pages worth) on a website he would accept that as well. I will write up the paper and if I have time convert it to a website for the extra points. But thats it, one lame ass paper and 3 simple multiple choice questions is all we have for our grades. I am estimating a pretty good grade for myself out of this.

Now, my third class is a little more leery, its being taught by Professor Garfinkle who is a really nice guy and knows alot about ancient history. However its a 400 level History class on Ancient Imperialism (focusing on the Roman Empire) I am excited about it but I am sure its going to make me cry by the end of the quarter (I had to buy 5 primary source books on the subject of Rome, for those of you who dont know what that means is we are using 5 books that are used by Historians about Rome, its very dry and detailed reading, kinda scarey books actually). The cool thing is Garfinkle in the last class I had with him was anything but boring so this should be ok. Damn gotta go to his class in 40 minutes, at least I have one super easy class.

Yes I know everyone asks me why did I pick a 400 level history class about Rome’s imperialism when I could have just picked a 100 level geography class. Its because I love to learn about ancient societies and this level of class is about as close as to learning about Rome as you can. Besides the more I learn about ancient societies the more I can flush out the histories for Dying Light.

As a side note I am beginning to coalesce an ASP database driven site that will allow people to update/make characters, search for anything in the histories and monster manual and basically make the Dying Light website about as interactive as you can ever get, yes the DL website is down currently but when I get closer to getting done I will put it back up).

This is what we wanted to do with Legacies when we owned it, but at that time I didn’t understand the coding it takes to do it. Hopefully if we start dying light in a year or so I will have the database fully interactive and it will reduce logistics down to a 1 man job that will take less then an hour 🙂

Sorry that was a side rant and I am being a post whore today so I will end my entry with giving you the knowledge that I am sooo exhausted because someone next to me in bed decided to use my armpit/chest side as a receptacle for thier fist. I think I am getting a bruise, we all know who to blame for that right?

First Dying Light Playtest

Gallery: Dying Light Playtest
Date: August 4, 2002
Location: Cornwall Park, Bellingham WA

Me pre-transition.

Well, our first day of play-testing helped. Oh my god, it rocked. The system is excellent giving everyone their own special abilities and combat is even more exciting then Legacies ever was. The biggest advantage is that combat is quick. In Legacies group combat that we had during play-tested would have lasted 10-15 minutes. During play-test true combat was over in less than 5. The funny thing was combat was still very equivalent to any of the awesome battles we have in Legacies.

Honestly ever since we gave up Legacies I have noticed a large percentage of the people who proclaimed to be our friend and like what we did with Legacies are now spouting shit out of their asses. It’s really frustrating to hear things concerning “the previous owners who screwed up the game” did they even understand that Legacies was over when we picked it up.

Wifey

MH (name removed to protect the dumb) and crew had decided it was over, me and wife at the great personal expense (about $8000 and bankruptcy) and got it going again. Of course, we saw the “good old boys network” as wrong and we took the “privileges” away from that certain people like Microsoft Douche, Mt. Baker High asshole, and others. We made them play the same rules as everyone else and like little babies they quit and didn’t come back. We spent a lot of time on Legacies and all we got was shit back.

I gotta feel sorry for Pinky (called that because he is a large man who is partnered with a very small man who makes plans and I have named “The Brain) because I am hearing things already about how “fucked up the new owners are” and I know that Pinky is a great guy and doesn’t deserve that kind of shit.

After Legacies, I was very much of the opinion that Larping sucked ass and I never wanted to see Larpers again. Now I realize that not everyone falls under this category but it is easy to stereotype. However the wifey really wanted to try Dying Light so I sat down and came up with the thought process behind the uni class system, handed wifey the notes (which were written on Shari’s napkins), and she created it into a clear and concise set of rules. Then with much input and advice from Dunk, we got the rules finalized. Then wifey did a huge ton of work on the histories, meanwhile, I have created the website, and the monster manual (plus the entire setup for a new logistics, not at all like the old model at Legacies). But to be honest I have always felt doubt about Dying Light. Well, today that Doubt was almost completely erased. We had 11 playtesters and we went out to the park with full costumes (people thought we were strange).

The day was great, we found the system to be extremely streamlined and the combat and system incredibly simple. After all this, I am excited about the next playtest (which is probably going to be August 25th). So this means I think we have an awesome Larp and I think it will be fun. I really hope Sandman and Meta Diva can make it someday (if not to a playtest then to the actual event) it’s awesome and I would love to share it with some of my friends.

Well, I will stop now, this has become a novel-length post, I will probably post tomorrow. I will however leave you with the gallery below from our first play-test.

Tuesday

Well here I am again, yesterday was so damn hot I couldn’t even do a posting. I basically went to class, studied, came home and played a little CS, a little Madden and studied a bit. I have a midterm today in 4 hours in my Roman Lit. class. I am pretty anxious about it and I should at this exact moment be studying but I can’t seem to do it. I will probably post this and then watch a buffy rerun on tv (its an episode for a season me and goat don’t own) and then at 9, I will start studying (that will give me 2 hours before the test).

I don’t feel sore at all after sparring Sunday except for my ankle, lol guess maybe I shouldn’t spar on a fractured ankle but if that’s all that aches I am surprised. I am pretty happy I get to quit the job at Papa Murphy’s. Don’t get me wrong I like the District Manager a lot, Mike is a great guy but the actual store manager Troy is an absolute moron and can’t even call me by my real name, he keeps calling me Laughy and all it was doing was pissing me off.

On a good note, I am awfully excited about Dying Light. We made up practice characters and I think the system will work well. The other thing that is great is the fact that a starting character is not useless nor does a person ever get so high a level that they plateau on ever gaining skills. I think we are all pretty excited.

I am also feeling much better about running games. Normally for my group, I am the GM/DM but last year or so its been hard for me to run things. This happens sometimes, I know it’s not that I don’t want to, it just usually stresses for the rest of my life that prevents me from doing things like that. I am pretty psyched about D&D, although I think I am going to lay down the law about arguing with the GM. I am tired of arguing and if people can’t hack my decisions they need to find another GM.

We are starting to play Heavy Gear, we are starting with just the tabletop miniature game to make sure we like it but if that works out I will be starting a Sunday game (D&D is currently our Saturday game). I feel bad, I normally run solo games for Jello but the last few months have not been good for my stress. I freak out about money. However I am feeling much better, now I just hope that I can get into the groove of his current character so I can start playing it, the only problem when I get to stressed to play is if it’s too long a time I sometimes lose the ability to keep that campaign going and need him to start something new.

Ahh stress, money is my number one thing I stress about. Legacies really crushed all our reserves, made us declare bankruptcy, and pretty much caused my life a tremendous amount of stress. I think the most upsetting thing about it is the shit people said behind our back. I especially think it’s funny that all the people that were incredibly nice to us as owners and always talked to us have pretty much never contacted us since we gave it up. Max I want to thank you for attempting to warn me and Jello of that, we figured you were exaggerating, surely people would not be so two-faced because of a game. You warned us and you were right. Oh well, I think we are going to adopt the Acts of Gord (at http://www.actsofgord.com) type of management for Dying Light. I think the funny thing is the shit people still say behind our back. But we decided this time around to take a different perspective, Gord definitely has the right idea.

Well, I should stop bitching and move on, I am really glad that some of the legacies people did stay in contact and I like them, the ones that are two faced can kiss my ass and are not important to me anyway.

On a good note, our MU Clan server was full most of yesterday, we have been working on getting it filled and it now is starting to. WOOOT. Well, it’s getting close to the time for breakfast and then studying. I might post when I get home tonight. Cya all.