Broken Trust… or Still way too fucking young!

Same Review as Book 1 except to say that adding a “voice” or chapters from Beck’s perspective were not needed and CW There is an attempted gang rape scene, read at your peril!!!!

Book (Audio): Broken Trust
Series: Dark Legacy
Genre: Dark/Bully Romance
By: Jaymin Eve , Tate James
Narrated by: Marnye Young , Jarred Kjack
Length: 11 hours, 16 minutes

To be honest, I really wanted to dislike this book and series after reading the jacket. I needed an easy listen and I figured it might be something to pick apart and dislike (sometimes I do hate-read, it is a thing), and the first part of this review will sound like I do. However, for whatever reason it still got four stars from me so evidently, I liked it.

I am not super familiar with most romance tropes yet, so maybe things I have a problem with are normal for the genre and that hopefully will explain to you why I am surprised about them.

The vast majority of the problems I have with this book deal with the ages of the characters. The main character is 17 1/2 (still legal in NY state) and the men are all about 20 years old that comprise Riles’s group. That is my problem, 17 and 20-year-olds are not that interesting, and making them interesting strains credulity (and since I love urban fantasy, sci-fiction, and traditional fantasy, I have a lot of credulity that can be strained).

If you want a school setting, just flip it make Riles a full-grown woman whose family all died except a sister that needs intense medical treatment, and Riles’s birth mother Katherine comes out and says she will take care of it, if Riles agrees to go to take over for her, but first, she has to attend a private university to gain a degree to help her on the board when she does takes over. See, we still have a university setting, but without questionably underage people present.

The guys themselves are a huge problem. No one at age 20 is a badass. I have friends that were in special forces at an earlier age, and I still wouldn’t call them a badass at 20. This is especially true for rich boys. Sure their life has been in danger, but I would put someone who has been over in Afghanistan for two years fighting for the US military over some rich boys who had training and might have had a few incidents.

Make the “boys” older. There is no reason to be 20 years old. If Beck is to be that badass, make him in his mid-30s. That gives you 15-20 years of living as an adult and that would qualify him (and the rest) as being a “badass”.

Also, a note for authors here. I grew up around very dangerous men. The kind people write books about (Vietnam Vet, 1% MC Outlaws) and not once did they ever call themselves badass. They were the goofiest set of guys you would ever be around… until shit hit the fan. No one who is a badass calls themselves “dangerous”, let alone calling themselves dangerous so many times.

Back at the age thing again, no one is taking over the board of a world controlling corporation at the age of 21. Especially since their parents are probably not any older than their early 50s at the most. Making the boys older and perhaps having them take over at the age of 35, or more likely when their parents are too old makes more sense.

The age thing goes on like this about details that bother me, and this really is 70-80% of the problems I have with the book.

The non-age problems mostly come into the emotional/verbal abusiveness that happens in the first two books between Beck and Riles. I don’t know if Bully Romance is really a thing, but maybe it’s just my taste that runs a little bit against that sort of thing. Although if that sort of thing bothers you as well, I can give you a spoiler that it mostly goes away in the third book.

The positives are the sex scenes are fairly interesting (but like I said, maybe there are way better ones out there since I am relatively new, but I enjoyed this) and to be honest something about the way Ms. Eve writes the story makes me want to keep reading (well listening because it’s the audio version I have).

She does well with the writing, I enjoyed it a lot and bought the next two without even pausing. I actually bought the next two before I was halfway done with the first, even while I was complaining about the age of the characters. If only she wrote this about older people, that would have gotten it a higher mark.

Oh and I suspect I will copy and paste this review for all three books because I am in the middle of the third book and I feel the same way.

Broken Wings… or OMG Why are they so young?

Book (Audio): Broken Wings
Series: Dark Legacy
Genre: Dark/Bully Romance
By: Jaymin Eve , Tate James
Narrated by: Marnye Young , Jarred Kjack
Length: 11 hours, 16 minutes

To be honest, I really wanted to dislike this book and series after reading the jacket. I needed an easy listen and I figured it might be something to pick apart and dislike (sometimes I do hate-read, it is a thing), and the first part of this review will sound like I do. However, for whatever reason it still got four stars from me so evidently, I liked it.

I am not super familiar with most romance tropes yet, so maybe things I have a problem with are normal for the genre and that hopefully will explain to you why I am surprised about them.

The vast majority of the problems I have with this book deal with the ages of the characters. The main character is 17 1/2 (still legal in NY state) and the men are all about 20 years old that comprise Riles’s group. That is my problem, 17 and 20-year-olds are not that interesting, and making them interesting strains credulity (and since I love urban fantasy, sci-fiction, and traditional fantasy, I have a lot of credulity that can be strained).

If you want a school setting, just flip it make Riles a full-grown woman whose family all died except a sister that needs intense medical treatment, and Riles’s birth mother Katherine comes out and says she will take care of it, if Riles agrees to go to take over for her, but first, she has to attend a private university to gain a degree to help her on the board when she does takes over. See, we still have a university setting, but without questionably underage people present.

The guys themselves are a huge problem. No one at age 20 is a badass. I have friends that were in special forces at an earlier age, and I still wouldn’t call them a badass at 20. This is especially true for rich boys. Sure their life has been in danger, but I would put someone who has been over in Afghanistan for two years fighting for the US military over some rich boys who had training and might have had a few incidents.

Make the “boys” older. There is no reason to be 20 years old. If Beck is to be that badass, make him in his mid-30s. That gives you 15-20 years of living as an adult and that would qualify him (and the rest) as being a “badass”.

Also, a note for authors here. I grew up around very dangerous men. The kind people write books about (Vietnam Vet, 1% MC Outlaws) and not once did they ever call themselves badass. They were the goofiest set of guys you would ever be around… until shit hit the fan. No one who is a badass calls themselves “dangerous”, let alone calling themselves dangerous so many times.

Back at the age thing again, no one is taking over the board of a world controlling corporation at the age of 21. Especially since their parents are probably not any older than their early 50s at the most. Making the boys older and perhaps having them take over at the age of 35, or more likely when their parents are too old makes more sense.

The age thing goes on like this about details that bother me, and this really is 70-80% of the problems I have with the book.

The non-age problems mostly come into the emotional/verbal abusiveness that happens in the first two books between Beck and Riles. I don’t know if Bully Romance is really a thing, but maybe it’s just my taste that runs a little bit against that sort of thing. Although if that sort of thing bothers you as well, I can give you a spoiler that it mostly goes away in the third book.

The positives are the sex scenes are fairly interesting (but like I said, maybe there are way better ones out there since I am relatively new, but I enjoyed this) and to be honest something about the way Ms. Eve writes the story makes me want to keep reading (well listening because it’s the audio version I have).

She does well with the writing, I enjoyed it a lot and bought the next two without even pausing. I actually bought the next two before I was halfway done with the first, even while I was complaining about the age of the characters. If only she wrote this about older people, that would have gotten it a higher mark.

Oh and I suspect I will copy and paste this review for all three books because I am in the middle of the third book and I feel the same way.

Projects for 2021

I decided this year to do some different things. I still have my three youtube channels, but I am only putting up videos as I want to, not worrying about getting multiple videos a week published. That frees me up for a lot of time to work on things. I realize it is sad for subscribers, but let’s be honest I won’t be a Youtube Rockstar no matter how hard I push.

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Not resolutions, just projects.

Photography, I love it and it is definitely on the top of my list. However we are still in pandemic time and honestly there is only so many selfies, cat pictures or pics of the husband. I don’t have a big project scheduled to work on until things lighten up (but I do have several sitting, such as the churches and bridges of Pierce County). This will happen, but only as the situation allows.

I want to read more. I normally target my goal of 52 books a year for GoodReads and I am pretty good at that target (I need to fill in the final 2020). However, the last part of 2020 was fairly book light. The pandemic for whatever reason had shrunk down my book reading instead of increasing it. So I am back to read 52 this year as well. The good news is that I already got two down as of yesterday (I love audiobooks).

My biggest project is a mishmash of writing. I am aiming for an average of 2,000 words a day, no matter what it is. That seems like a lot, but I do a whole ton of writing for gaming, campaigns, etc that no one sees. That will count. I wonder if I can hit 1 million words in a year. I think I will use Grammarly to track for that.

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Gaming at this moment is on the back burner. I don’t have enough reliable players to fill a group, we will come back to that though when things ease up for people. Instead, I do want to see about rereading some old books I wrote or partially wrote and see what I can keep and what to put aside. The big portion of this writing will be to go through all my old campaigns for all the systems.

I got a notice from Google that they are going to start deleting old accounts and old files that aren’t touched. My stuff is backed up and scattered across multiple accounts (mostly due to the WAVE fiasco that google also closed). Back in 2010 I lost decades of campaign notes/ideas/jotted down action reports because I hadn’t seen their notice of shutting it down, then when I hopped on , it was all gone. That was tough… so much stuff lost.

So many campaigns

At the end of last year, I downloaded everything I could for all the campaigns. Some of these campaigns contain 4 or more campaigns in those folders (such as Burning Twilight – 4 campaigns at least, Shadowrun 5 campaigns at least, Call of Cthulhu at least 3, and Project Hidden at least 3). It was a lot of files.

So I decided this year that I will go through and clean/combine them. There are several campaigns that are spread out over actual decades of real-time. I think I might start with my DND and work my way through all the campaigns, compiling them together and organizing them into settled worlds. Take the rules from each incarnation I like and just set them up. Of course, I will keep all the campaign-specific adventures as well in their own sections.

This way, maybe I can eventually write them up into books, make enough for a Starbucks drink! LOL nah at the very least I want them for future use. It is funny, I have ran games for more than 30 years and all the campaigns could be run again. I do think though my age and experiences would probably shape how I presented them though.

2020 Project 365 – 11 November

November 2020

A trip to Bellingham, and a lot of selfies!

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Dreams: Stuck at an airport

As a background, I haven’t talked to my sister at all since May of 2020, and only four times before that after my parents died in 2016 (even before that it was less than a couple times a year).

I was somehow traveling through an airport in a super cold place, but it was also a desert and ended up at the airport. I got trapped at the airport without my credit card. I had somehow misplaced it, or someone had taken it.

At this airport is a giant pool. Above this pool is a lobby that isn’t walled off from it. It sits like a mezzanine overlooking the pool, no wall, no railing, no nothing. There is at the edge of the water a concrete pillar that goes out of the water and up to the second floor lobby. A ladder runs up that pillar from the water.

Somehow while at the airport, looking for the credit card as I meet various people we are also living there above that lobby. It was a similar setup to where I lived as a child in Everett in an old mansion-like building. This whole time I kept rifling the lobby’s couches looking for my credit cards. I kept finding other people’s credit cards but not mine, so we were still there stuck for the entire dream.

At some point my sister showed up and she was angry that I kept jumping off the lobby ledge and into the pool, swim around then go back up to the lobby via the ladder on the pillar. She was also carrying around some huge stuffed animal, but I couldn’t tell you exactly what it was or why.

She decided to go tell my parents on me in the apartment area above the pool and lobby and locked the door to the room they were in (it was the door to the bathroom of that apartment from my childhood, sort of weird). She was tattling on me or trying to get me in trouble.

Meanwhile, I found my credit card but found myself the next moment on the concrete pillar, but it was a lot taller. Instead of being about 10 feet up above the pool, it was 40 or 50 feet up from the pool, and about 30 feet up above the lobby. The ladder down wasn’t accessible easily and I was afraid to try and climb down it for fear of falling

That is where my dream ended, with me trapped on the pillar, in an airport, above a pool 50 feet below (that I didn’t think was deep enough to dive into) having been desperately looking for a lost credit card that I finally found, but also now worried my parents were going to be mad at me for whatever reason.

Yes, it was disjointed and I am processing shit. I haven’t talked to her in 8 months and not much before then. I have just heard she got married a month ago, and then her husband passed away a week ago (unexpectedly). So undoubtedly it has a lot to do with hearing about her.

I have avoided talking about most of my issues with her, but honestly that is probably going to be done here at some point. My therapist is slowly digging into my family, and evidently I need to vent here.

Porky’s… or WTF did I just watch?

A lot of my media reviews are just twitter-based, not much to say. Some however wrap up into memories of my childhood, such as rewatching old movies or maybe seeing media that was recommended to me back then but I had actually never seen before now. Porky’s is the first one in this new set of media reviews to hit that spot.

I grew up in the 70s and 80s, surrounded by exploitation films. I don’t remember any of them being great (evidently a lot of Gen X did remember them being great) but they were part of the stacks of VHS tapes we would rent when I was a pre-teen to a teenager.

Currently, I am on a kick of watching the movies we rented as a kid to see if they work for me still. Sadly a lot don’t, but I think some might (at least I hope Vamp, Conan, etc do work when I get to them), and there have been some huge successful rewatchings for things like Aliens. Aliens always wins.

So I was looking through our Amazon Prime options and I see Porky’s. I already know it is going to be bad, but I noticed it has a 4.5-star rating with 1200+ reviews. I check out the web and find it was one of the highest-grossing movies like this for the time, and evidently considered one of the most successful Canadian movies.

I don’t remember much of the movie itself. We consumed 6-10 videos a weekend when my dad had the money to rent them, and it was one of those movies I think got watched on a Saturday morning with myself (age 14/15), my sister (11ish), and my little brother (5/6ish).

Yes we watch inappropriate movies all the time, but usually it was horror or war/sci-fi type movies. We didn’t go for a lot of the sleazy ones specifically.

So I watched Porky’s this morning… or should I say I watched about an hour of it before I just had to shut it off. First movie since I started this media reviewing that I couldn’t finish the show.

I don’t recall when I was a teenager that it was so sexist and downright misogynistic, although to be honest, that was fairly standard back then, so I should have expected it. I also didn’t realize it was so racist and anti-semitic. I didn’t recall any BIPoC in the movie (although that is obviously racist in itself), but the very large black man threatening the kids with the machete and the relative common use of the N word was shocking this morning… well not shocking maybe, but disappointing at the very least. Either way, totally unacceptable.

What I didn’t see coming, because I hadn’t remembered it was the anti-semitic tirade that would happen sometimes. That part of the story was about a Jewish boy that was constantly picked on and anti-semitic slurs used, by one of the other main characters. That bothered me a lot, then I realized they portrayed him as the richest of the teens as he drove off in his fancy red convertible… which falls right into stereotyping of the whole Jewish Banker thing.

Sadly it was something I would have never understood as a child. I never grew up around anyone of the Jewish faith that was close, and my parents were unique in their religious outlooks that Jewish people were never blamed for anything (in fact my dad would sometimes drunkenly proclaim that Jesus was a Jew and if Christians wanted to be serious they would stay Jewish). I know my dad had a friend who was a rabbi he would sell pot too, but he was never anything but one of my dad’s friends. I just didn’t realize the discrimination and hatred they received regularly, and it still shocks me that so much hate and ire is pointed at them.

Overall, it is a horrifically bad movie. Racist, sexist, anti-semitic with bad acting, bad production, and overall just way too raunchy and not funny. I would definitely say to stay away. Also, I removed from the watchlist the two sequels, I can’t even go there. I have also added the trailer below, and the tweet review below that.

Walking with the Enemy

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Fairly standard for being “Rogue”.

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